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Thursday, May 29, 2003 ( 11:18:00 PM ) Miss Scarlet I love Dawson's Creek-There, I said it. It's true. I dont' know why. I mean, I do know why... But I'm going to be lame and post these "memorable lines" on the DC Webpage bc I like them and I want to see them whenever I want. DAWSON: I’ve seen how much she loves him. I’ve seen it on her face. I’ve seen them kiss. I’ve seen them hold hands. And tonight, I saw them fighting -- which is something I’ve basically been seeing every day of my life since the first grade. GRETCHEN: But not like this? DAWSON: I think it was actually worse than the kissing. JOEY: What's wrong? Why'd you stop? PACEY: Come on, Potter -- every day we make out on this couch and you always stop it at the same point and we end up watching TV for the rest of the afternoon -- I'm just issuing a preemptive strike. JOEY: And I'm issuing a counteroffensive. JOEY: Look, I was going to tell you, Pacey. But I was waiting to see if he’d agree to do it in the first place before starting world war, where are we now, fifteen? If you're upset because I asked him... I did it because it was the question, Pacey. Third grade, Dawson was there when I broke my left arm jumping off Peter Masik's back yard swing. He was there when I came home early from Lake Emandal sleep away camp due to homesick nights. He was present on the horrifying day that I wore my first training bra, and when my mother died he was the first one to walk through the door. He sat next to me for the whole afternoon and never once asked me how I was doing because, unlike everyone else, he knew me well enough to know that there weren't words to describe how I was doing. You can't be angry that I asked Dawson. PACEY: You don't get it. It isn’t the act. It’s not that you asked Dawson, it's the question, Joey. "Person who knows you best." When do I get to be that person? PACEY: Look, we’re friends, Dawson. But sisters are -- DAWSON: -- Off limits? PACEY: Sisters are like mothers. Only pretty. JACK: Did it ever occur to you that you're so caught up in trying to make the right choice that you've never stopped to consider the possibility that there may not be a right choice, or a wrong choice, just a bunch of choices? JOEY: Thanks Jack. That's helpful. JACK: That's the point. You don't need help. There's nothing to figure out here. There's only what you feel. JOEY: What I feel is fear. JACK: I'm not telling you to sleep with Pacey... JOEY: But... JACK: All the really exciting things in life require more courage than we currently have. A deep breath and a leap. See Joey, the kind of fear you’re talking about... sometimes it's how you know what's worthwhile. PACEY: You're gonna throw it away? JOEY: The wrapper, yes. PACEY: If this is about -- JOEY: -- It's about you carrying my bag off the bus yesterday. It's about how at the movies, when you get the popcorn you bring me a napkin so I don't have to wipe the butter on my jeans. Or how last week, at miniature golf, you made sure you always shot first so I could see which path worked best. PACEY: That was just -- JOEY: -- You taught me to drive. You knew the bracelet I wore to the prom last year was my mother's. You kissed me first and you counted to ten before you kissed me again in case I wanted to stop you. You...you bought a wall for me. PACEY: I didn't so much buy it as -- JOEY: -- Three months alone on a boat and you understood without a word why I wasn't ready. Do you really have to ask now why I am? So... in about ten seconds, I'm going to start kissing you. And if you don’t want me to... well, then I guess you’re just gonna have to stop me. Ten. JOEY: Have you considered the fact that you just might be the first of many, Pacey? PACEY: Then I guess I'll just have to be content with being the Neil Armstrong of the bunch. JOEY: Do you know what made it so nice, Pacey? You probably don’t even remember. It was just this thing. There you were, above me, and you started brushing my hair off my forehead, and it felt so nice. It made me feel... safe. Like no matter what, you were gonna protect me. Years from now, when I think back, I'm not gonna remember the clumsy positioning or the morning-after awkwardness or if the experience itself met the textbook definition of great sex. What I'm gonna remember is how sweet you were. And how you took me to this brand new place. I'm glad I had sex, Pacey. And I’m glad I had sex with you. And now, I just want to go home. So we can do it again. PACEY: You know, last year -- I could give you something no one else could. I could give you a wall to paint a mural on, I could sail you around on a boat for a whole summer, I could give you that night on the ski trip -- but I'm spent now, Jo. I've got nothing left to give. And it makes me angry that you'd stay with me even after I've become what I've become. JOEY: What have you become? You're just you, you're a good person and I love you-- PACEY: -- Joey, I've become someone who hates himself so much he can't even look in a mirror. And I wish being with you didn't make it worse but it does. Because the more you love me in spite of all this, the angrier at you I get... and the more I stop loving you back. JOEY: How long have you felt this way? PACEY: I don't know. And I know it isn't right. I know my failures have nothing to do with you, but if we stay together, I'm just gonna keep taking it all out on you -- like I did in there tonight. That was horrible, Joey, and I know all this is totally my fault. I can't keep treating you like that - but I know I won't stop treating you like that. JOEY: I've got news for you -- how you treat me, is actually totally in your power. PACEY: Joey, look at me... Senior year is over. We're two different people, heading in two different directions. There's no boat in the sunset this time. There's Boston and there's Capeside. JOEY: You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve better? How dare you? DAWSON: Okay, all-time most life-altering moment. JOEY: Ever? DAWSON: Ever. JOEY: Wow. Lotsa winners there. My mom dying. My dad going to prison. Pacey... But then there’s this other moment that comes to mind. It was a couple of years ago. In this room. I was standing over there, by the window. And you kissed me. And it changed everything. It’s a powerful thing... having your biggest wish come true in one moment. That's all for now. I know I'm a nerd. #
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